luna-myuu

moved to birdkisses

Today I thought about you after i woke up.  I told my sister i find guys with black pickup trucks really attractive, when i was actually saying i found you really attractive.

So i told myself to stop thinking of you and that i was really comepletly over you.  But that was a lie, one i need to keep from breaking down.

I thought of you later that day when i saw a road sign.  It read "kerrville" and i remembered trying to over turn over your canoe in the river, but we all know I couldn't because i'm not as strong as i say i am.

That night i hung out with my friends and I only let him get close so i could imagine it was your warmth, not his.  

I almost broke rule number two: Don't cry over a guy. That was when you told me how you pulled a piece of glass out of your leg last week and how you would do it over a thousand times just to be with me again.  

I said "I never got over you, don't play with my heart."
You said "I'm seriously still crazy about you"

N

"alrighty so the dealio is that if you comment i'll give you a letter and you can list in your journal ten things starting with that letter that you like."

i like;

1. North where its cold
2. Nature
3. Nails, like the hammer kind
4. Naps
5. New clothes
6. Noodles
7. Native plants
8. Needle and thread
9. Noses
10. Neon signs

i think of how leaves are supposed to change color
and how the concrete makes my butt cold to sit on it.

my sweatshirt and warm cocoa
falling in love, or thinking you might be but not knowing cause he is your first.

dry, brittle, grass with damp jeans and converse
the smell of spice.  

i want to be held and told i am beautiful.

Its 3:30 AM